As I
woke up, I felt much better than yesterday. The blog I wrote yesterday I felt
like I was losing out on what I said I was going to accomplish and that I wasn't going
to get far with it. Now today is a new day and I look at yesterday as the past.
I felt like today was a refreshed breather and I accomplished more
today. I think if I put my mind to it, I can do anything and that’s what I
needed all along. I was losing focus of that the whole time, and sometimes
in life I have to keep reminding myself to keep my eyes on the prize. Being out
of school is a bit depressing for me right now, not as depressing as when I was
going through my kidney transplant. That was on a
whole different level of depressing because, i
felt lonely and I also felt like I was alone in the whole process
even though my family was there, nights went by where I was alone. I’d hear
babies at night dying and their families asking god and the doctors why
this happened to their baby. It was something I didn't want
to experience, but I did, but back to the blog at hand, I feel depressed
because with school, that is my life. Just like how a football players’ life is
the NFL or like a basketball player’s life is the NBA, mine is School and that
is my getaway. After I am done, I don't know how I am going to handle being out
of school but I guess I will deal with it somehow. This is a
little different because I took the semester off by force. But now I
am feeling better about everything and today made me see everything in a whole
new perspective. I am refreshed by this new day and know that I have to get
everything together and find what I need to get temporary happiness because the
way I am right now isn't making me happy. Waking up late, eating and
playing video games for the next six months is not who I am have always had a
drive like no other. I don’t want to be lazy, I always want to get up and do
something, even helping the community, I will do what I can but wasting time isn’t
one of them. Just like i used a variety of my time today I will continue to do
that every day.
I will
not lose!
Sincerely Yours
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